Regrets & Acceptance…

I’ve been struggling with so much going on in my head these days. I’m positive I’m not the only person to ever feel this way, but I really am not enjoying company in such misery. In an effort to reclaim serenity, purpose & direction, I’m putting it all out there. Let it be the blog world’s problem & not mine…thx to CityMama for the inspiration:

I Regret:

• Compromising my character by allowing myself to treat others in a way I wouldn’t like to be treated
• Moving into a posh center city apartment we couldn’t really afford because it felt nice
• Not allowing myself to do small things that feel nice so I don’t feel desperate to do big things that feel nice
• Not using a schedule & relying on memory for things that are important
• Making decisions for “the money”
• Not finding mentors sooner
• Spending so much time indoors with my son knowing we both love the outdoors
• Hesitating when I’m required to be unapologetically me
• Seeing the beauty in other’s imperfections & not my own
• Not going to the beach more often, or better yet, living near the beach, when I know it’s where I feel my best

I Accept:

• That I can’t be all things to all people, but I can be a big help & a great friend to quite a few
• That moms & wives need time to be just women from time to time
• That sending my son to daycare part time will be best for EVERYONE in my family
• That reading every blog & being a part of every seeming relevant social network is a big waste of time
• That the occasional glass of wine @ 1pm will make me live longer & feel good, even if it makes me seem like a lush
• That I will say really stupid & ridiculous things sometimes, but it’s okay, because I’m not like anyone else in success or failures
• That having a life does not make me a bad mom
• That there is a such thing as too many mentors
• That if it won’t matter in 5 years, it’s not worth getting all worked up over anyway
• That time doesn’t change things on its own, but it will give me a chance to change

Advertisement