Regrets & Acceptance…

I’ve been struggling with so much going on in my head these days. I’m positive I’m not the only person to ever feel this way, but I really am not enjoying company in such misery. In an effort to reclaim serenity, purpose & direction, I’m putting it all out there. Let it be the blog world’s problem & not mine…thx to CityMama for the inspiration:

I Regret:

  • Compromising my character by allowing myself to treat others in a way I wouldn’t like to be treated
  • Moving into a posh center city apartment we couldn’t really afford because it felt nice
  • Not allowing myself to do small things that feel nice so I don’t feel desperate to do big things that feel nice
  • Not using a schedule & relying on memory for things that are important
  • Making decisions for “the money”
  • Not finding mentors sooner
  • Spending so much time indoors with my son knowing we both love the outdoors
  • Hesitating when I’m required to be unapologetically me
  • Seeing the beauty in other’s imperfections & not my own
  • Not going to the beach more often, or better yet, living near the beach, when I know it’s where I feel my best

I Accept:

  • That I can’t be all things to all people, but I can be a big help & a great friend to quite a few
  • That moms & wives need time to be just women from time to time
  • That sending my son to daycare part time will be best for EVERYONE in my family
  • That reading every blog & being a part of every seeming relevant social network is a big waste of time
  • That the occasional glass of wine @ 1pm will make me live longer & feel good, even if it makes me seem like a lush
  • That I will say really stupid & ridiculous things sometimes, but it’s okay, because I’m not like anyone else in success or failures
  • That having a life does not make me a bad mom
  • That there is a such thing as too many mentors
  • That if it won’t matter in 5 years, it’s not worth getting all worked up over anyway
  • That time doesn’t change things on its own, but it will give me a chance to change
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One Response

  1. Hi Tara, I just wanted to say that after reading about you and where your head is at you rock! Life is a journey of our making. I look forward to your tweets!

    You have a choice so, make it a better than terrific day!

    Terry

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