Regrets & Acceptance…
January 18, 2009

I’ve been struggling with so much going on in my head these days. I’m positive I’m not the only person to ever feel this way, but I really am not enjoying company in such misery. In an effort to reclaim serenity, purpose & direction, I’m putting it all out there. Let it be the blog world’s problem & not mine…thx to CityMama for the inspiration:

I Regret:

  • Compromising my character by allowing myself to treat others in a way I wouldn’t like to be treated
  • Moving into a posh center city apartment we couldn’t really afford because it felt nice
  • Not allowing myself to do small things that feel nice so I don’t feel desperate to do big things that feel nice
  • Not using a schedule & relying on memory for things that are important
  • Making decisions for “the money”
  • Not finding mentors sooner
  • Spending so much time indoors with my son knowing we both love the outdoors
  • Hesitating when I’m required to be unapologetically me
  • Seeing the beauty in other’s imperfections & not my own
  • Not going to the beach more often, or better yet, living near the beach, when I know it’s where I feel my best

I Accept:

  • That I can’t be all things to all people, but I can be a big help & a great friend to quite a few
  • That moms & wives need time to be just women from time to time
  • That sending my son to daycare part time will be best for EVERYONE in my family
  • That reading every blog & being a part of every seeming relevant social network is a big waste of time
  • That the occasional glass of wine @ 1pm will make me live longer & feel good, even if it makes me seem like a lush
  • That I will say really stupid & ridiculous things sometimes, but it’s okay, because I’m not like anyone else in success or failures
  • That having a life does not make me a bad mom
  • That there is a such thing as too many mentors
  • That if it won’t matter in 5 years, it’s not worth getting all worked up over anyway
  • That time doesn’t change things on its own, but it will give me a chance to change

Oh so cliche…
January 13, 2009

It’s a new year & there are probably hundreds, thousands, better yet, hundreds of thousands of other people out there in the internet world who are saying, just like me, “I wanna start a new blog.” Yup, I’m just like you all…

This year is a little different though. Why?

I read an incredibly informative blog by Christine Kane.

This year, unlike resolutions, I’m focusing on GENEROSITY.

In an effort to share more of myself, my time, my resources, my knowledge & my network…i’m creating this blog.